I’ve decided with our third round of IVF right around the corner, that I need to take some extra steps to relieve stress in my life.
I bought an acupressure mat, that I will start using on a schedule this week. I also bought an IVF CD, which is to help visualize success and eliminate stresses and worries…something I need help with. As hopeful as I am for this next round to work, I keep telling Shawn that I just can’t see myself pregnant. I’ve gotten so many negatives and have had two failed rounds, that seeing it actually working is just hard. Well, I can’t think that way. I need to visualize myself pregnant, and think positive thoughts. Hopefully the CD will help me do that.
This week is also my last week of alcohol and caffeine. I’ve been slowly weaning myself off of caffeine. Right now I’m down to one cup a day. Next week, I’ll be at zero. That way my body has time to get used to no caffeine, so I’m not crabby from that, on top of all my hormone changes when I start my shots in a couple weeks. As for the alcohol, it’s not like a drink that much anyways, but I decided to eliminate all alcohol intake the month prior to the IVF this time, even the occasional glass of wine. That also won’t be hard because with the side effects from the drugs, drinking never sounds that great anyways!
Something else I decided to do is stay away from Facebook for a while. I deactivated my account on Friday and honestly haven’t even missed it at all over the weekend. I thought it would be hard to not check it all the time, but it’s not. Some things were just stressing me out on FB. I would get upset anytime I would see a pregnant person complaining, or someone complaining about their kids. And all the pregnancy and birth announcements don’t make it easy either. I’m happy for those who are lucky to get pregnant and have families so easily, but it doesn’t mean it’s easy to see. I need to just focus on myself, my husband and our upcoming IVF cycle, and not have to worry or stress about other people’s posts. It’s not worth it. I’ll be back on FB after our cycle is over…hopefully with good news that we’re pregnant. Until then, I’m just going to focus on more important things that make me happy, and continue to blog through this round of IVF.
If anyone cares enough to know what we’re going through, they will read this blog. If not, it’s a nice little journal for me and a place to vent my feelings without offending people! March is my month to be selfish. I’m going to avoid making a lot social plans, and I’m going to do what makes me happy. I’m not trying to be rude to anyone, but after two failed rounds and the stress IVF puts me through, I’m focusing on me and I’m not going to feel guilty about it.
