I'll never understand it!

Yesterday I was calm and collected, but today I am furious! That's infertility for ya. It's a roller coaster. Sweet baby Tyler Dasher was found murdered yesterday, and the mother is a suspect. Now, I obviously don't know if she did it or not...but why is it that there are so many horrible mothers out there who don't even want to be pregnant and treat their children like crap, and then there are people like me, who would give anything to be a GOOD mother and can't. I have to pay 10 grand for just ONE more attempt to even get pregnant, and that is if that attempt even works! Seriously, how is this fair? Why does the world work this way? I'm completely livid about this today. I just want someone to explain it to me.